Okay, here we are. Let me explain all of this to you. In the past year, I have been outed by one of my team mates, gone through depression with extremely bad grades(I am pretty much a nerd so a 40 isn't good), been excluded by most of my team, told numerous adults about me being gay so they can try to help, forced to go to a shrink because according to my mother "I have no idea what I am talking about, this is all just a plot to get attention, and I'm too young to know that I'm gay" (just wow), cut off from the majority of my family, and now I have to try to work my way back on to a team that I used to practically live with.
That sums up that. So I created this because I was always a sad person when I realized I was gay. I felt like there was no one out there like me. But guess what? People just like me, and you are out there. You just have to look. And I don't want any other person to feel that way. That being said, go ahead, talk to me. I can and will help you, if you want it.
I also created this because starting the Seventh of November, I will be the first openly gay swimmer that my school has ever had. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. But I'll find out this year. I feel as though this will be quite the experience, and I want everyone to read it and think about how it affects them. Also, I have become friends with another gay swimmer, going through the same stuff as me. He too has a blog, the link is at top.
I should probably get back to whatever class I'm in. I will post again later tonight.
Chris,
ReplyDeleteOnce I start following a blog, I try to get caught up. All I can say about this is whoa!
Please know that I don't post snarky crap on Twitter, Facebook or in comments (can't think of a good reason to embarrass myself or you, imagine that in an adult old enough to be your parent), and I don't dispense advice (most unasked for advice is unwanted, and most asked for advice is unheeded, so why bother?). What I do well is listen, so if you need to let it out, you are welcome to hit me up.
I think being here will be a good thing for you. You've already discovered other gay athletes your own age who are going through many of the same things you are, so you'll find plenty of support there. I hope your experience here in the blog world is as cathartic as mine has been, even as an olde farte.
And if anyone ever gets pervy with you here in cyberspace, let us adults know so we can try to make their life miserable!
Peace <3
Jay