My Best Choice

     Yup, I'm back in that stage again. The one where I am completely unsure if I am going to swim. Here's a little thing I've been working on.

I wish I could tell you I'm ready for this. I'm just not. I feel like all eyes are on me. So many people wanting me to do this, yet I must decide for myself what is best. And that, that my friends, is where I have the most trouble.
With every simple mistake I make, every hit that I take, I am forced to re consider my decision to swim.
If,and only if, I can overcome my fears, my goals and my dreams will shine...or swim.
What if,what if, everything goes wrong? My life will crumble,again, in front of my eyes. This I would not be able to handle.
They all say that I can do this, and that I will be okay. But I don't believe them. They don't know for sure. They don't know what I feel like. What I worry about,they just don't. They can never have the same feelings as I.
I don't know who can tell me and reassure me enough so that I will do it. I honestly don't.
Heffron has, Sean has, Sam has, Aaron has, Marisa has, Ricky has. Hell, even Nate has. And it still does nothing for me. Nothing at all.
This rocky road that I have to live on may not be the best with it's potholes,weaves, low shoulders, unpainted lines, but it is the road I must learn to drive on. Without accident. This is where I wonder how good my driving skills are. This road must be driven carefully and skillfully.
I hope I can tell you I'm ready for this.